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#reverb10: beyond avoidance

Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

Reverb10 prompt from Jake Nickell

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Another retread! Sorry folks.

This is how I kept myself busy this year. Don’t worry—this isn’t a 300,000 word book I’m writing; I do actually like readers and don’t want to give them injuries from lugging around a book that size. I rewrite at 750words too, so that’s deceptive. But dude, I really wrote a lot. So it’s a case of half-busy, half-avoidance when it comes to all my teacher paperwork that, ahem, is one of the eleven things that I’m getting rid of in 2011

Tossing it—well, most of it, just in case—is a huge deal for me, because it’s like saying that I don’t expect to teach again. And I don’t! I mean, I think I don’t. Probably. I would love to, in a lot of ways, but there are other ways in which I’m glad I don’t have to. And if I keep trying to write and just cannot sell a book, then I’m not so thick that I wouldn’t give up. But eventually. Not now. Now I have the drive to do it, so do it I will. 

When I wrote, ahem, the previous entry dealing with this stuff, I put the teacher stuff first because it’s the biggest symbol I could think of when it came to committing to writing—not as big as the word count, but still. My husband likes my curls. One day, I handed him a bag filled with all my brushes, concentrators, straightening creams, and my flat iron, and we threw it all away. Putting all that teacher stuff through the shredder will work the same way for me. And the net gain of storage space is totally not a part of this decision at all ;)